Stories of Heart & Surrender – by Mandy La Grange

Story #1: Disillusion with “success” - my jumpstart into authenticity

13 years ago I reached a pivot-point in life. I became aware of the lack of joy and fulfillment I felt in the life I had created to that point – which was outwardly perceived by the world around me as a ‘successful’ life. An inner crisis arose as I could no longer live the pretense of a life built on seeking the approval of others!

And so, in 2012 I made the courageous choice to leave my corporate job as an equity analyst with absolutely no idea of what I would do next for work, but knowing I had to ‘find myself’, because my crisis was that I did not know who I was or what truly filed me with joy.

After extricating myself from ‘the rat race’ I read copious personal growth books, did weekly sessions with a life coach (painfully working through the numbness I had covered all emotion with) and did many courses to explore my true nature. And I did A LOT of walking in nature! It was a lonely and confusing time but slowly I started to re-connect with my authenticity (my Soul). In 2013 I walked the Camino as I sought healing, cutting my hair off as a literal expression of shedding the old, inauthentic persona.

When I found the work of Dr. Joe Dispenza in late-2017 it was such a wonder, at last I had found information and guidance that brought all my scientific and spiritual views together. His words resonated so intimately with what I had thought were my completely unconventional (and possibly unacceptable) beliefs. My heart whispered ….. yes, you can start to show the world your authentic Self.

By 2018, the courage and dedication I had given to walking a path of the unknown in search of my authenticity, had rewarded me with many gifts of abundance: self-love and self-trust being 2 of the best. So when I met Debbie that year, through our mutual interest in Dr. Joe’s work, I had clarity that now I was attracting my Soul-tribe. And so, our beautiful journey of friendship and kinship began as I continued my personal journey into freedom, love, and a whole new identity and way of being in the world.

Story #2 –The Moon Jumper Clarity

Sometimes, even when in crisis, we allow the nudges of the Universe to be expressed through following our intuition. This was the case in 2013 when I created a company called Moon Jumper. I had no idea what the company would offer but it was the shell for whatever I decided to begin building as I began to rediscover myself.

Only in 2018, just as I found the work of Dr. Joe Dispenza and met Debbie Craig did I gain clarity that I AM Moon Jumper! And what I have to offer the world is experience of transforming the Self, of Opening oneself to Abundance, of stepping into the river of change to shift out of fear and lack. And so I began coaching Self and Wealth transformation and did my first talk on this, including the neuroscience of change, much of which I had gained the language to express through reading and watching all of Dr. Joe’s work.

At last knew what I wanted to do for work! And I had taken inspired action by giving the talk and setting up a website. Then began the journey of attracting clients and marketing my value. Eeeek! Next set of opposing beliefs (to my abundance) given permission to arise! But the excitement and awe of knowing what my Soul brought me into this life to do, was (and still is) bliss!

Story #3 – Head not yet trusting heart and the subtlety of my unravellings

In 2019 I had considered going to the Dr. Joe week-long advanced retreat that Debbie did go to in Malta, but I chose not to go based on the financial cost of it. My heart was calling me to go, but my head was doing its age-old job of ‘keeping me safe’. This practical-minded choice focused on money is a pattern of limitation founded in the fear of not ‘having/being enough’. And Boy! Does it raise itself obstinately, even after all these years of recognising it for that and continually working to release and overcome them.

The hypocrisy of this kept me contained to small amounts of coaching as I judged myself not worthy to teach about abundance when money freedom and flow is one of the elements of what I want to teach. I had opened myself to incredible abundance in all other areas of life, but it just wasn’t being reflected in my income generation or wealth creation. Through the years from 2012 I traded financial markets, got interested and invested in crypto and managed my own investment portfolio. The rollercoaster of my performance outcomes is testament to the internal battle of head (old familiar, percieved to be safe) against heart (new, unknown).

When Covid arrived and the world went into lockdown, I retreated back into another period of introspection and more exploring the ways in which I continued to live in limitation, BUT, now simultaneously practising connection to my heart and developing intuition plus trust in my intuition. I was starting to imagine and feel into what my most awesome life entails while doing heavy pruning of the neural networks still deeply holding beliefs (energy) in opposition to abundance.

From 2020 I started doing more community-based learning and sharing of my experiences of change, initially by doing one of Debbies first Neurochange retreats (now offered as Quantum Leap Retreat Level 1 – next one coming up in October in Cape Town).

In these spaces my experiences of choosing change seemed so small and almost inconsequential as I listened to other people’s (including Debbie’s) chaotic and often painful experiences of unravelling. The same too for my calm meditation practices where others were sharing profound, epiphanically mystical experiences in meditation.

It has taken me a long time to realize that my unravelling had happened over longer time-frames and in more subtle expressions of aha-moments and trauma release and that this was perfect for me. I did not need to compare or judge my transformation as less than anyone else.

Each of our unravellings and growth will be perfectly unique as we consciously choose to change, but it took doing the work in community for me to realise this and give voice to my experiences. And oh! How the sharing enhances and often times accelerates the letting go and expansion.

Story #4 A tendency to down-play 'breaking points' and confusion with trying to rest & surrender

Only in hindsight do I accept that I too experienced periods of ‘breaking’, because when they happened in my earlier adult years, I had not yet started to understand the power of our bodies to communicate what our Soul’s desire. I judged the injuries, depression and sadness as weakness and something to fix with traditional medicine and the help of professionals AND something to keep behind closed doors. I was perceived as strong, a leader and I upheld myself to these external responsibilities (and internal hefty expectations) to the point of the body failing under the stress of it all.

Yet I also realise that through all of my more protracted ‘breaking’ under the strain of superficiality, I had a deep sense of spirit – just a glimmer of it, but enough. Even then I did yoga but then the practise was more about physical strength and force, than welcoming in the holistic connection to my whole being.

Through the many years of my awakening into authenticity and joy, I still under-played the intensity of the pain and chaos of my pivot points. Only now do I acknowledge them and offer gratitude for how my body and Soul kept offering my mind the wisdom that ‘ego control’ is not my natural state of being, that in fact it is a behemoth of limitation!

When I chose to leave corporate and exit ‘the rat race’ my body felt strong and healthy, but my Spirit was exhausted from being buried and ignored for so long while my mind was exhausted from all the trying to figure everything out (while simultaneously perpetually judging all my choices harshly).

I too needed rest and gave it to myself unashamedly at first! But the head was habituated to self-judgement and so the questioning about “am I just lazy?” started to compound. There was also a sense of guilt around having walked away from all the incredible opportunities and education my parents had worked so hard to give me.

Thankfully, the intense learning curve I was on about psychology and the trinidad of body–mind-spirit helped me see the duality of rest vs. laziness in me, play out, as I started to actively choose rest and observed my mind keep throwing the confusion of laziness into my psyche.

Today, I do not believe that anyone is lazy, I rather believe that the capitalist-ego driven societies we have cultivated, simply judge those who do not subscribe to the ‘rules’ and limitations of the system as such. Those who choose to BE welcome rest (balancing the nervous system), whereas those that continue to define themselves by all their DOING tend to judge rest as laziness.

This evolved perception serves me well 🙂 perhaps it could be of value to you too.

Story # 5 — Self-love & vitality: fun vs. force and alignment of ancient wisdom (yoga) and neuroscience

I spent 3 years feeling quite lonely as I immersed myself into finding my authenticity. I lived alone, had split up with my last boyfriend (synchronistically with my exit from corporate life), had no family in Cape Town and pulled back from time in the company of old friends because I didn’t have much to say about all the things they still found interesting and worthwhile to talk about.

But it was in these 3 years that I began to know and love myself. And strangely, although I felt lonely I didn’t feel concern about finding love and intimacy again – this is probably the main area that I intuitively practiced surrender. I developed a deep trust that in time I would attract the most magnificent partner – all I had to do was learn to love myself unconditionally and so that is what I focused on committedly. And in 2016, that is exactly what happened – through Tinder!!! My heart opened as I began to love myself more deeply and I attracted not only my Soul mate, but he also had a little dog who I now have a deep love relationship with too, and a little doggy was consistently on my vision-boards and a desire I had through those earlier times of loneliness.

In another key area of life physical health, fitness and exercising has always been an aspect of life in which I have experienced ease and joy. It’s also been the primary way I have immersed myself in nature and developed a love of, connection with, and awe for nature.

Yet, in childhood and my younger adult years, there was often an undertone associated with sport which was low frequency (I think I experienced it as a quiet form of anxiety back then) as it was a place I sought approval mostly from my Father.

Competition is an interesting concept for me as I recognise that it can be a powerful motivator toward excellence and can teach good communication skills, but more often it seems to be engaged as a means to validate one’s worthiness, sense of superiority over other’s and compounds the act of separation and segregation (them vs. Us mentality) or self-chastisement.

As my personal transformation journey began I moved away from playing team sports into more individual pursuits in which I found the freedom to no longer feel the need to compete with others, gain approval or force myself to better and better performance – I engaged doing these physical activities for the pure pleasure of it!! The sense of freedom I feel in the spaces I do them in, and the rush of endorphins as I love and listen to my body through movement are indeed a reminder of the abundance available to me in all areas of life. And so I use these feelings of ease and abundance to spark it in the areas of life where flow has been stymied.

I also found a form of yoga that supports my abundant-life personality. I took myself through Kundalini yoga teacher training in 2020 primarily to deepen my own practice but then I tried giving a few classes and I have found this to be another place where my authenticity allows me to offer value and guidance to others while I fuel and support my own being. It is no coincidence that 2 of my great passions in life now are neuroscience and yoga as they complement one another so beautifully. If anything, I perceive the wisdom of neuroscience as being taught by Dr. Joe (and others) in the light of us being multidimensional beings having a one dimensional experience in this human form, to simply be presenting the wisdom of the ancient traditions (like yoga and meditation) in a way that our minds can understand (and resonate with) as a means to bring us back into deeper connection as Spirit.

Story # 6 — Becoming the New me .. and launching Global Quantum

When I look back at my prolonged river of change, it feels like a dream because even the hardest parts had an element of ‘just knowing’. And although my ego-mind fought hard to stay in the familiar I kept leaning into the unknown, finding the resources to support me.

Now I understand that my path of awakening to the majestic wholeness of everything isn’t just for me. It’s for us. It’s a field of energy, a way of living, a tribe of people walking this path together.

This is what Debbie & I are creating with Global Quantum— not a program, but a living community. A place where we share practices, wisdom, and tools. A place where we support each other through the hard unraveling’s, and celebrate each other’s breakthroughs.

Together, we’re building a tribe where freedom isn’t just a word — it’s a vibration we hold for one another. There are times we get to feel this frequency a lot .. and there are times, we need a little help and support from our friends – to remind us who we really are. We are a work in progress, shifting and shaping our future selves in every moment-by-moment choice of thoughts, feelings and actions.

I love working with Debbie because she is truly visionary and is so inspirational in her ability to take inspired action. She connects so deeply with people and has a magician’s intuition coupled with grounded presence as she creates and shares her learnings and wisdom. Debbie is a leader in the context of us awakening as a species into love and our limitless nature.

Together, we have tried and tested new forms of connects, retreats, sprints and journeys and adventures over the last while (including hiking the Fish River Canyon together) – and look forward to sharing these as we evolve with you.

Story #7 — Living in the Frequency of Freedom

So often we think of freedom as a destination. Something we’ll reach once we’ve “made it,” once the conditions are right, once the struggles are over.

But here’s what I’ve learned: freedom isn’t a destination. It’s a frequency.

It’s a state we can choose, moment by moment, even when the circumstances around us aren’t perfect. It’s choosing to live with more heart, less head. To listen inward. To let go of control. To trust that life is carrying us into a bigger story.

It’s the recognition of where you are at today and the choices you are making (or not). It’s the tiny often imperceptible movement from feeling in FUNK – to pushing through FORCE – to surrendering to FLOW and finally embodying FREEDOM.

When you live in the frequency of freedom, everything changes. Relationships soften. Work flows more easily. Creativity awakens. Life feels lighter, even in the middle of challenge.

This is the core of Quantum Freedom — learning to live in that frequency together, in community, so that freedom becomes not just an idea, but a way of being.

If you want to taste what that feels like, come and step into one of our upcoming spaces: